Right now I'm feelin' like Sisyphus, Prometheus, Atlas, Loki, and Tartarus in their worst states, and Milarepa in a blender. Running on a sense of sheer self-imposed obligation, and it's enough to drive one mad. Such is life in the realm of perpetual inconvenience.
I'm feeling very hostile toward the world right now. I'm also having a major schadenfreude moment, day, week from the news reports I'm reading. It's all goin' down, and eventually I'll be goin' with it, but that means I don't have to deal with this disgusting cesspool any longer.
Gods, why do I always have to piss on the electric fence?! Why can't I ever take the sage advice of the one who knows better than I?!
Oh well. This too shall pass.
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Wish it would rain. Some of the plants I am responsible for are NOT happy from lack of water. Neither am I, since more leaves are being lost than are growing, and we're losing shade. I could throw water over the balcony, but come on!
Currently also due for major sleep deprivation, amongst other things. There is a chance I may have to compromise my alleged scruples and work for an industry I can't stand whilst hoping the same industry dies if they offer me a 'real' job, and they might. I shall find out in a couple of weeks. On the other hand, it will be a useful source of information working there. I guess I can consider myself a 'double agent', if it happens. (Muahahahahahahaaaaaaa!)
I am NOT in a good mood.
